Catharsis of a nihilist

The whole human race has no meaning. Life has no meaning. It is all insignificant. There is no supernatural, definite god in this insignificant world of yours. You humans are just a part of this Big Universe that surrounds you. Nothing else. You shouldn't feel proud about your evolution, progress, development, modernization, morality. It all just happened. What if it all was a consequence of a Big Bang? Big Bang happened, right? Or not? Does your knowledge enlighten you?

Science is what you humans have found out over the years. It's like a memory of whole mankind. Technology is an implementation of science. Philosophy collectively indicates different ways of thinking process of mankind. What you humans call morality has been developed by your race on trial basis. The decisions about what's fit & what's unfit are limited to your Earth only. Your morality cannot penetrate the fathomless universe.

The only agreeable thing is that you all are a small part of this Big Universe and you have developed your own way of living over the years on trial basis. You cannot associate any feeling to your existence. You just exist.

Human race has no particular, physical motive to live. Consequences of decisions of predecessors provide a motive to successors. Everything around you, excluding nature, is a consequence of your predecessors' decisions. Without motive, you humans seem confused about the ultimate goal. Your race is straying from your own morality because of errors in your way of life. Political problems, terrorism, greed for money, power struggle. . . You are so drifting. Your race is lost in a maze of your own morality.

You just keep on living your life meaninglessly, trying to achieve as much happiness you can achieve along the way. Happiness is something that can be called as a fuel of whole mankind, though there is confusion about exactly what drives a whole human race these days. You all are Hedonists. You can deny that but hedonism is in the genes of mankind. And it isn't about the ethics. Because ethics depend on the morality which is variable, insignificant & imperfect. Your knowledge and inventions are so limited to your Earth.

You humans need mental support to stay calm. As a solution, you have invented some imaginary people (?) to believe in. So you call them Gods? What a pity. You humans are so weak. And so confused. . .

You're getting nowhere. I pity you.

A peep into the outside world

I think I have too many problems, confusions, frustrations, regrets in my life. Its like many layers wrapped upon each other & I'm stuck right into the core of this multilayered shit. I won't be able to clear the whole mess, but I hope I'll be able to push some layers off to make a small hole which will be enough for me to peep into the outside world & breathe the air of satisfaction. Playing guitar keeps my mind off these things though. . .

Shredding on acoustic

      I’ve been playing guitar for a while now. Till date, I’ve composed loads of licks & riffs. Also, I’ve been playing System of a Down, Wolfmother, Led Zeppelin, Despised Icon, Pitchshifter, Green Day etc. and of course good ol’ Metallica. It’s just a matter of experience. It was hard before, but now my fingers move pretty well on the fretboard even though I'm still improving.

      I have a sleek red acoustic guitar which is a witness of my guitar playing since it all started from scratch. I think I’m the only one who plays Metallica or SOAD on acoustic. Playing all these Metal songs on acoustic have made my fingers very strong. And they say electric guitar is like 10 times easier to play than an acoustic because it has low action. Now I'm really excited because I've training myself so rigorously on an acoustic that it's going to be a piece of cake when I will buy an electric guitar. It's kinda stupid that I've been playing chromatic exercises over and over again (it helped a lot though) in order to be a good shredder. If I can shred on acoustic, it's going to be so amazing on electric. . .